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Thursday, February 13th, 2003 at about 8:26 pm

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I realized, reading my last post, how stupid I sound when I think I’m being clever.

I just had my first piano lesson. I took lessons for several (five) years in New Jersey. I now remember why I didn’t like it. Somehow, in that 1/2 an hour, all the anger, depression, frustration, and sadness that I had removed myself from when we moved came back to me. Piano was always sorta hanging over my head. Now, this isn’t to say it was all bad. There have been many times when I thoroughly enjoyed playing. But I am again reminded of the far greater pain it has brought me. Maybe I just shrink from challenges. In fact, it’s quite possible. Or perhaps this is only the case with the piano. But, no matter the cause, it just makes me feel shitty. I hate the damned thing with such a passion. I only wish that that hate wasn’t something so short lived that I forget about it for long enough to go back for another round of pain. The whole thing is so ridiculous it sickens me.

Yesterday I went to the girls’ varsity game against… someone. I forget who they played. I’ve got a mind like a sieve, with flypaper attached that will catch all the useless things. Anyway, we won, which was very cool. We had a good time cheering raucously. Also, there was popcorn. The ride to and from the game on the fan bus (yea that’s right, we had a fan bus. take that!) was also oodles of fun.

And that’s all for today.

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by tom

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Thursday, February 13th, 2003 at about 2:13 pm

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I… something. I had something that began with “I” to say earlier today, but I forgot it. It’s terribly sad. Not quite as sad as this loud rap music being played behind me in the school computer lab, but sad nonetheless. So, for substitute: I feel like I am going to explode. I’m pretty sure the original was along those lines. Space Ghost, and shut off my mind. It helps (helps a LOT) if I stop thinking. It’s the only way I can get anything accomplished these days. But hey, whatever works.

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by tom