Archive for March 5th, 2003

all’s well that ends well

Wednesday, March 5th, 2003 at about 8:23 pm

all’s well that ends well

An odd feeling I have. I know there are quite a few things I should be doing, but I’m not entirely sure what they are. Or, rather, if I do know what they are, they no longer seem nearly as important as they did previously. Periodically today I would have this happiness spike, followed immediately by a dive into some valley of depression. It always went away quickly, but it was still rather unnerving. The mental conversation my brain was having with itself seemed to be something along the lines of, “I’m so HAPPY!” “Why?” “Oh, who cares, I’m just feeling good.” “Well you shouldn’t be.” “Oh, you’re right, I should be miserable, I am miserable, nothing is worth being happy over anyway.” The pessimistic side of my brain beat the optimistic side into submission and tossed the broken, battered corpse upon the gates to my conscious in a decadent celebration of its victory. Luckily I was able to overwhelm it quickly, and all was right in the world (or my world at least). But still, the internal warfare gets me down, tires me out.

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by tom