Archive for September 15th, 2003

‘there is no hope for us’

Monday, September 15th, 2003 at about 5:04 pm

Mary, there is no hope for us
If this GM van don’t make it
across the state line
we might as well lay down and die

High school lasts 4 years. Lifespan for a baby girl born tomorrow is about 100 years now. For 4% of your life (ok so more, if you figure you won’t live to 100) it seems to be overly important? These self-destructive teenage years when you don’t know what the fuck to do with yourself, is this it? The rest of life sounds pretty boring, if our young and crazy days last so little. By the time you’re 25-8 or so (depending on schooling) you’re supposed to be settling down, getting a real job that you’re going to be essentially doing for the rest of your physically active life, getting married, whatever. I’m not trying to complain. In fact, that doesn’t sound so bad, if you get a job you actually like and marry someone who you understand and who understands you. And I’m not complaining about how it sucks to be a teenager, because I don’t think it is. The whole thing seems like a pretty good deal, with a little luck. All I’m trying to say is, fuck I feel alive, and I don’t want it to end. These are the days of mood swings that I can’t control and days that disappear, as well as days I can’t forget and people I’m struggling to understand. It’s all crazy, I can barely keep up sometimes, but it’s all right. Taking things as they come works better than I ever would have thought.

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by j. android

weekend scenes

Monday, September 15th, 2003 at about 4:46 pm

Went to two shows over the weekend on Saturday. It was a good time, the first being sorta docile hippie child type of thing and the second being a reasonably well attented hardcore show at the Red Herring. The hardcore show was more fun, but I liked the venue of the first. It was in the beer garden at Mike and Molley’s, in the afternoon when the sun cast shadows across this odd steel grate structure on the building behind the place. A wall of ivy on another side and our backs the the uncrowded street, too. I liked it, it felt like a little musical nook or something.

So Saturday was a good time. Sunday was an even better time, I got to relax in full. Today was back to the painful grind. I’ve got to go do my homework, but at least I don’t have that much. I wish my motherfucking books would come in for my history paper. It’s been a week, I think they must have gotten lost in cyberspace.

background noise: “We Laugh at Danger and Break All the Rules” Against Me!

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by j. android