Archive for October 6th, 2003

groan

Monday, October 6th, 2003 at about 3:22 pm

I have no consistency in my thoughts and emotions. I go from feeling like time is flying by without me noticing to feeling like forever is this afternoon, and that there is nothing good happening. It’s a dilemma.

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by j. android

‘ with nothing else to do, it’ll just be me and you ‘

Monday, October 6th, 2003 at about 3:21 pm

When I was little I used to get sick after watching movies that scared me or freaked me out. It was terrible. That went away a long time ago, though. Rarely bothers me any more, and always now for different reasons (not movies).

Right now I’m struggling with massive boredome. It just snuck up on me, all of the sudden like that. But it hit me, and hard, that I have nothing to do. Nothing at all. I have no hobbies any more. Over the past few months I’ve basically abandoned all of the things I used to like doing, and haven’t replaced them with anything. I don’t watch TV, I don’t read, I don’t play computer games, I don’t make stupid little things for the Internet, nothing. Faced with days with little responsibility and little to do, I’m beginning to panic. This nauseous state of emptiness, I hate it, I’m scared of it, I don’t know what to do. I just don’t know.

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by j. android