Archive for February 2nd, 2004

‘…darkly coming, to take me home…’

Monday, February 2nd, 2004 at about 8:08 pm

Adobe GoLive is resource-hungry and tends to crash about 1/3 of the time I open it. Stupid thing. Oh well, at least my computer isn’t being held hostage by viruses. Or viri. Whatever.

I get the distinct impression that I’m pretty lazy. I am at once selfishly convinced that I shouldn’t really have to work hard at much of anything, and driven by an intense desire to do well. This just sort of gets ignored most of the time and doesn’t affect much, but every once in a while erupts into chaotic contradiction. Generally when I go through a bout of particular laziness and can’t be bothered to actually do anything, and then get pissed when its suddenly hard to get away with it. I guess it’s most school, but this tends to seep into other aspects of life as well. Nothing really interests me right now. I’ve got plenty of things to do, there are plenty of things I do do, but overall none of it really seems worthwhile. Boredom, I guess, for want of a more sophistictated word. Stupid boy, things don’t always work the way they should. And how should they work? Less effort on my part, I suppose. Things happen, and I barely blink. It’s all a little routine, even if I’ve never been there before. What’s the use?

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by j. android