‘…i wish i were both young and stupid…’

It’s been a while since I bothered to write anything. I haven’t been at home. I was on the East Coast for the past week and a half, on LBI, in Baltimore, and for one day in Long Hill. It was good to see people I hadn’t seen in two years. Somehow it was a lot less alien than I thought. The town has faded much from my mind, or more accurately my perception of things has changed so much that it looks completely different. Not completely different from the way I remember it, really, since I barely remember it by now. Just like a town that has some similarities to where I once lived. I make connections between places and spending time there or seeing them often, but there’s no familiarity. Almost exactly the opposite is true with people. There’s almost nothing alien about the people I saw, they all seemed to be exactly as I expected them to be. They look just as I thought, still act largely the same way. I wonder if the same is true for me. I feel so different, but who knows. Maybe I just keep telling myself that and have succeeded in convincing myself its true.

background noise: “You Could Make a Killing” Aimee Mann

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