onward, onward, and no looking back

And then it’s over! So fast, and almost effortlessly. With nothing now standing between me and graduation except a Calc final and some ceremony, it’s looking like a big wide world of summer right now. I still can’t really process that it’s all done though - it hasn’t sunk in. I thought I would start getting nervous months ago, but instead it’s remained entirely unreal until even now, when classes are finished and all is arranged for an ending. I cannot help but feel a little guilty I’m not more emotional, more caught up in the finality of it all. But, for whatever reason, I’m not. And so instead I blink occasionally at everything rushing up off the edge of the cliff, but don’t scream. It’s not a bad way to go, really - the silence is just a little uncanny.

And, undoubtedly, made easier by the many things to look forward to: graduation itself, parties afterwards, a blissful summer beginning with an 8-day trip to Scandanavia and then Bonnaroo. And then hot days at home, trips to New Jersey, and no real responsibilities until late September. Here’s hoping for a few glorious aestival months.

One Response to “onward, onward, and no looking back”

  1. Sara Says:

    Admit it. You got the word “aestival” from my Stall Vocab. :)

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